In four minutes

I have four minutes to give you a quick update of my life. I am the most anti social person ever right now... not by choice!!! I have had so much homework and stuff in my head that, you know when you wonder if another person even notices that you exist, well, sometimes, I forget I exist. So, next time you see me, I would not mind a friendly HI, at the very least, to know that there is life and hope out there. Jajaja. - God's peace, I am out!

The difference between "consumption and compassion"

Today in chapel. Advent Conspiracy. Watch and Read on.



"Definitions of advent on the Web:

* arrival that has been awaited (especially of something momentous); "the advent of the computer"
* the season including the four Sundays preceding Christmas
* Second Coming: (Christian theology) the reappearance of Jesus as judge for the Last Judgment"

"Definitions of conspiracy on the Web:

* a secret agreement between two or more people to perform an unlawful act
* a plot to carry out some harmful or illegal act (especially a political plot)
* a group of conspirators banded together to achieve some harmful or illegal purpose"

ARE YOU IN???

This is what many on this Earth have been waiting for. COMPASSION. Is this a threat, challenge or a dare?
I will later add the perspectives on Herod's kingdom vs Jesus' kingdom.
But I will leave you with this for now. Give and if you can't, figure and pray for a way to encourage others to do so.

Have you noticed the need

Many people are out and about. They have lost their homes and maybe more. They are homeless and most times hopeless. Think, Thank, and Give. Think: How blessed you are if you are even reading this online. Thank: God for all your blessings and Give: just do so.

I met two

I thank God that I met two gentlemen. No, I did not do my best to look great (I don't even know that I was quite visible since it was dark outside), (i had never met them), and they offered the comfort of a room for the outside's cold. Awwww. I thank God there are still gentlemen out there. I did not even get to know their names but it gives me hope that there are some out there.

Horray!

So, my b-day is coming up very shortly. Anyways, what I think is funny, still, is that someone over the weekend told me I looked 17, and today, another person asked me if I was still in high school. I said, no, I am in college. He said, oh so you are a freshmen in college. I said, no, (and smiled). Yes, he made my day. Somehow. I have tried even putting makeup on and its not working. But, I guess its not a big deal. :)

Amero or not?

I had not heard about this. I can only encourage you to do your own research. Pray. However, remember, that God is in control and everything works for the good of those who love God. I leave two videos, one by Hal Turner the one that says it will happen. While the second one is against Turner's claim. I am in no way suggesting Turner is right because he mentions Jesus Christ at the end of his video... I actually started to write this blog before even finishing Turner's video. When I heard at the end of his video, him mentioning Jesus Christ, I edited my blog to let you know that I am not suggesting anything. I myself are still to pray and research to make up my mind in regards to all of this.

2 cents

So I was editing my blog in regards to gentlemen and I thought about a subject that as women we need to be reminded of as well. NOBODY IS PERFECT. No, your prince charming (prince Caspian, lol) will not be either. You are and will never be perfect, how and why do you expect this of another human being. I once heard of a lady who cried... she cried not because of something her husband did or did not do. She cried because she placed expectations on her husband of what she thought her ideal husband would be for her. I was thinking, I know that does not happen often so pay xtra attention, that we need to find ourselves complete before we meet our prince charming. Why? Because if we find ourselves complete, and that can only come through having a relationship with Jesus Christ, then the prince Caspian in our lives would not be something that we need to complete us, but something that God gives us in addition to our abundant blessings in Him. I put this as a reminder... for me, ... and if you want to take my 2 cents be my guest.

This was my midterm for journalism

http://greattakes.blogspot.com/
http://nathanlawrensonphotography.blogspot.com/
http://blog.epicedits.com/2007/11/07/87-great-photography-blogs-and-feeds/

I am currently taking a course of photojournalism. I have learned the rule of thirds, about lighting, moments, environmental pictures, and we are moving into covering sports. I remember always enjoying taking pictures. I always take ownership of my sisters' camera...sorry, but not really. I used to look through the view finder and SNAP, take a picture. Now, I know better. It takes time, and sometimes patience, but when you see the results of applying practices learned you may even surprise yourself sometimes. I still have a long way to go in photography. However, God has provided the courses, not only the one I am taking right now, but one I had in High School, where I learned to develop photographs, and in the future, I know God has a plan for all the education He provides. At the very least, for me to get lost in awe of His small display of His enormous glory here on Earth through my small eyes. I chose these three blog websites because I love how they capture the present, love, and all of the above. Really, I like to take pictures that will give me something to look at in my future that reveals the importance of the past. Not vacation pictures; you know what I mean, the one with aunt Lola, you and your cousin standing awkwardly in front of a restaurant’s name very quick to shoot because the other tourists are heading to the same spot to take a picture. If you get lucky you will not have another person’s arm at one of the corners of your photograph. That just drives me insane! In other words, I like memories engraved in photographs. I have not been able to do this myself, but I hope that with a little more time in this course I will be able to capture stories. I want to tell stories of individuals, families, events, through photography. I see the importance of photographers and writers working together. This will come in handy when I work for a magazine or newspaper, God willing. I had my share of being a backpack journalist this summer at my internship at La Prensa. It is as God states in His Word, we all have different gifts, but they are all valuable. We all need our companions’ gifts and they need ours. So share and value each others’ gifts. While surfing the web, I found greattakes, which is a young man's website of photography. He says "In a nutshell...I love people, romance, emotion, making people smile and laughter. I hope you are able to see into the heart of what I do as you "blog" with me!" Awwww, as a female its impossible to resist... yet, I did look and critiqued some of his photographs to make sure he did do what he said he likes to do and capture. He does. The next blog website is from an older gentleman, who also displays family, love and one of the finest settings ever, (yes I am biased), the beach. I enjoy the beach so much. In his website he not only shares his photography but lists suggestions on what is best to take such photos and he also shares both what he has learned and his family. I think that if I was a professional photographer I would have the overstated phrase of "Live, Love, Laugh" as a motto. Now the last blog website was really neat, not only because of the type of pictures and composition that this photographer has on sale (beach oriented), but also because of the extensive list of photography blog websites that are out there for the viewing. Wow! Too much fun, so little time.

Ballroom

So today, after coming home from a great meal. (I had not had breakfast). Oh yea, it was my first time eating ribs... one word... delicious! Hmmm. Ok, back to what I was saying, oh wait, I am debating between perfumes... juicy couture or Hollister (*SoCal) or I want to see if Abercrombie and Fitch has any... anyways. I got home and discovered the perfect room to dance. It is unbelievable, its my garage. Oh my, fun times.

The difference between a gentleman and a hoax

This is something that I have been experiencing. I want to say one thing: "A GENTLEMAN IS A GENTLEMAN AT ALL TIMES AND WITH ALL PEOPLE". What do I mean? No, a gentleman is not the one who pulls open your door, gives you a wave like if you were royalty, or pulls your chair ... when you loose weight, dress up, wear make up or are his girlfriend. A gentleman does this and more for you even if he looked at you in your pajamas, no makeup, and however your hair looks when you wake up and even when he does not know you. Not only this, but he treats everyone the same at all times. Christ is our example, He is a gentleman at all times and with everyone. So, I challenge guys to change for the best, and girls notice the difference and choose the best.

Eli Stone

So whenever I get a chance I watch Eli Stone. A show where Eli Stone, played by Jonny Lee Miller, a lawyer that through visions lives a step ahead. Or does he? I like the show because it mentions God. It is rare that God is displayed, mentioned, or even hinted anywhere now, and for what I have seen, it is portrayed with respect. In this week's show, Katie Holmes stepped into Stone's life and it seemed that it was a match made in heaven. Even Stone's father had probably predicted this love match. However, not even empowered with visions would Stone have ever predicted that, at least for right now, Holmes, known as Grace in the show, left to Africa and will not be his half. So, yes, these are some reasons of why I like this show. It is hard to find shows that are good now a days... yes, I am a hard critic.

Lessons

Love = Giving without expecting to receive ... its hard
Give and you will loose your dependency on things
Accept God's Love, He made you the way you are because of His love for you and to be loved by Him
Our "struggles w/ self control, patience, etc, is a lack of love in my life" - Lauren Barlow

MAKING IT KNOWN ... PLEASE PRAY!

09/29/2008: GFA Leaders in India Join Dharna and Peace March Against Persecution


GFA Leaders in India Join Dharna and Peace March Against Persecution
Bishop Simon John is shown being interviewed by the Indian media at the dharna.

Gospel for Asia leaders in India have joined with the heads of other churches, ministries and Christian institutions in a five-day rally in New Delhi to protest the ongoing atrocities against Christians in Orissa and other Indian states, even as GFA President K.P. Yohannan reported new persecution against the beleaguered believers.

Called a dharna, the event is an Indian method of seeking justice, traditionally by sitting at the door of one's debtor or wrongdoer and fasting until justice is obtained. This dharna began Sunday and will last until October 2, Mahatma Ghandi's birthday, when a peace march will end at the Raj Ghat, Ghandi's cremation site.

A one-day dharna was held at Raj Ghat last week to draw the attention of the government to the continuous violence against Christians. Representatives of other minorities joined with the Christians in this peaceful protest, and the decision was made to conduct the longer dharna this week.

"I believe the Lord is going to use this event," Dr. Yohannan said, "and I have instructed our leaders all over India to seek out other Christian leaders and meet with them and stand with them in this time of persecution."

GFA-related leaders participating in the dharna include Bishop Simon John, the Rev. Thomas Varghese, a number of senior staff members from GFA's Delhi office and staff members from a local GFA Bible college.

"Bishop Simon John is one of the most visible Christian leaders in North India speaking out against the abuse of the Christians in Orissa and other states," Dr. Yohannan noted. And at the one-day dharna, he was joined by H. D. Deve Gowda, a former prime minister of India.

Gowda came to New Delhi and sat with the Christian leaders. He criticized what he called "the continuous inhuman acts of the Bajrang Dal," the so-called "Hindu warriors," and appealed to the central government to stop the atrocities against the Christians.

"But sadly," noted Dr. Yohannan, "even as the dharna is going on, the situation in Orissa continues to get worse. But little is being reported to the outside world now because the media is being kept out, even as entire villages are being destroyed."

In a telephone report from India, Dr. Yohannan shared some of what the radical anti-Christian groups are doing.

"The politicians in New Delhi need to know that even now, the radical Hindus are going through many districts, putting a Hindu flag on the Hindu houses to identify them," he explained. "Then they are going to the Christian homes and giving them so many days to convert, or they will destroy their houses. When the Christians refuse to renounce their faith, the Hindus go through and tear down their houses."
Christian leaders from throughout India are participating in a dharna to draw attention to the persecuted Christians in Orissa.

Even late last week, he said, an article on the front page of a leading newspaper called the situation "awful," and reported that the government of Orissa is still not taking action.

"I pray that this dharna, along with the prayers of Christians around the world, will have an effect on the government," Dr. Yohannan declared.

In the meantime, he said, things grow worse, even in the places where Christians are seeking refuge.

"One of the worst things I've heard is that the police are harassing the people in the refugee camps—some 15,000 Christians who fled for their lives—and trying to force them to go back to their villages, where the police know they will be attacked and possibly killed," Dr. Yohannan said. "I just have one thing to say to the Christians in the West: Keep on praying!"

The dharna will end at 2 p.m. Thursday with a peace march to Raj Ghat, where the Christian leaders will present a memorandum to top government officials calling for action to prevent further persecution of Christians and other minorities.

Fireproof

the next movie-to-see. It opens Friday in a theater near you.

what my black purse says about me...lol

What Your Handbag Says About You

You tend to be relaxed throughout the day. You are naturally at peace. You are a high maintenance person. You feel lost outside of your normal environment. You are a very creative person. Your life tends to be a whirlwind, but you always seem to pull it together. You are practical and down to earth. You tend to be a rather reserved and quiet person.

What Does Your Handbag Say About You?

A matter of the heart

So when I was putting my computer away last time I wrote in my blog, I overheard some news that I was just too tired to write about that same night. So, I will comment on this now. I heard that a young lady is selling her virginity on ebay! Seriously! There are various reasons why I was so conserned when I heard this. One, what have we as a society made of values? Do we determine success with money and a career or family and health? A little off track, a president (running our nation) being payed less than a celebrity!!! And this young lady, who wants to pay off her loans to move to her masters, has she no other option to accomplish her goals? Another concern of mine is for the young lady herself. Does she know how worthy she is? Not because of her virginity (which I give her credit for now a days that is rare), but because of who she is. She is obviously smart...moving to her masters! She is made in the image of God, like we all are. I think she has not reflected on her worth. The third reason why I am so concerned with these news is because if the authority is enforcing the control of prostitution on the streets, what is the difference with doing this in the streets and doing it thru the internet? Once again, where are our values and ethics? Where is our heart? I would, if I could, pay her the biggest bid so that she would keep her virginity. For as you should know, when you have intercourse with another person, you become one with the other person. So, if she sells herself to a guy who does not value her, or himself, or even the act of love, then... that says much about what she will end up being.

copy of my "The need and freedom to express myself" article

Thursday, September 11, 2008
The need and freedom to express myself


So I need to just simply write everything that has stirred me lately.

1. When I heard a republican or democrat say "everyone goes thru troubles" (or something similar) in regards to the disaster that the hurricanes had caused in cuba or somewhere. The news reported on how these politicians were having great parties at night. No, not only a one night gathering, or even a ball, it was parties. Full blown out, drinking, rich women, smoking, dancin, rich men, having fun (I believe in night clubs). Ahhhhhhh! he made me soooooo angry mad. I cannot someone could say this with no regrets. Or maybe he did regret it, hopefully, when he woke up probably with a hang over. We speak about how we are so priviledged and blessed here in the United States, and some of us feel even the need and drive to help others; however, this man, did not find compassion in his heart for those who might have lost not only material things, a home, but even a family member. Ahhhhh! I am sooo upset.

2. Diplomatic Immunity!!!!!! SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhh! Ok so, if you don't do anything wrong you should not be afraid of any law. This immunity allows diplomats to not be charged with any criminal acts. Does not sound to bad right? It was created to protect diplomats from a bad reputation from people making up stories about them. So, all of the information here, except for my biased feelings, opinions, etc. I watched it yesterday on 20/20. During the programming, at least three women spoke out about how they were mistreated, enslaved, by their owners. They would clean their mansions, and these women said that they would get paid a very small amount of money, their passports were taken away and therefore they could not leave. This is our world. Emancipation Proclamation? REALLY? Where? For how long? Because these individuals are obviously in the 21st century living without it.

3. Ok, so please somebody tell me what happens when something blows up? what happens when something explodes? I do not think that you need much time to tell me the results. Explosions = Destruction and brokeness. So when I watched the news and the particular story covering the possibility to prove true the big bang THEORY in regard to atoms coming together and creating living creatures... including you and I... I was disturbed. My heart felt low, and even little doubts shot thru. However, God tells us not to forget about logic ( Proverbs 3:21 My child, preserve sound judgment and discernment, do not let them out of your sight); and well, like I and you know, explosions do not create - they destroy. Another thing to think about, if there was an explosion, and the perfect environment was there for life to occur, then we obviously need that environment to continue living, right? Well if we have the same environment, because we are obviously living, then, can someone tell me why living creatures are not generated with every explosion that we have had on Earth. Can you imagine = explosions creating life? I don't think so, no, I know so, this theory is a LIE.

4. I pray that God blesses everyone, that He may heal the broken hearted, and may they take the opportunity to seek His help. In rememberence of all the courageous men and women who fougth to save many others while they themselves knew that they would probably not make it out safe. May God bless the children, mates, families, and friends of these remembered and highly appreciated courageous people. As well, thanks to the women and men who are truly fighting for our freedom, I appreciate it, I could not do it, thank you all for your sacrifice.

me...weird...really?

well, i dont know, today it has been kind of boring. actually since yesterday. and well I dont know what to do so i remembered about my blog and decided to type something up. all i can say is that God has showed me how blessed I am at home, and also how He responds in the silence. I am in need to still be patient and wait on Him for answers...those who know me know that i am impatient...very...very impatient. Well, God is good. and i also feel like calling someone but at the same time i dont. Hmmm... i wonder if anyone understands that or is it just me?

practice practice practice

Me and my brother practiced so much today that he said his cheeks hurt from sitting so long. Jaja. Well, I kind of pushed him a little too much, but it was fun!

doing my part, may it be for God's glory

Here I am LORD

I have not had the best past weeks, however, I am hopeful. I am trying to keep God's promises in mind and remember He will perfect the work He has started in me. It has seemed to got worse, it might be that I need to give a lesson this week, I wonder why this happens but I know the answer. Man, not even really spreading the Gospel of Christ, just you know, His guidelines of great living can make the enemy really upset. Since I know why, maybe my question should not be "why" so often but "what do You want to show me God?"

jaja...So what do I like?

I like potatoe logs
like the ones we sell in Ralphs
the ones that are fresh they are
way good and
you should not only take a
look but you should try them, of course
at Ralphs, so that if I work that day you can also visit
me

God is good

Today i went to "The Livingroom" Bible study. Wow! All i have to say is that God was there and He spoke to me. It was as if God showed me His army. Also, with the music of The Trade, who will be in Day 7 at Harvest Christian Fellowship - everyone is invited- I felt the joy of the Lord. I hope and pray that I will be able to continue to go. I will be getting up early starting tomorrow. I believe I cannot do anything but God can do everything. If you would like to join me for an hour of prayer from 6-7 for the world. "For God so loved the WORLD that He gave His only begotten Son that if anyone believes in Him will not perish but have everlasting life". As you can see from the post before this one "daily prayer", the world needs prayer. The world I believe needs time, time to hear the Good News of Jesus Christ, before anyone kills them! Please pray for protection and for God's grace for them to come to know Him. Remember that when we see God we will be in awe, let go of anything you will let go of when you see God.

Daily Prayer

It is time to rise up! It is time to pray.
I woke up this morning to the news of 40 people dead and others wounded in India's embassy in Afghanistan. It was only last week when a guy killed three people in Israel and wounded others! I woke up to those news too. I can only think about how much prayer is needed now a days. It is now the time to pray daily, even before we go to bed just to plead God for His help, so that if He permits the next day, we can open our eyes and not find out that yet another attack has occurred. PS: I have been thinking about the end of days lately. It seems fires have sparked, wars are out of control and earthquakes and other natural disasters have hit us pretty hard. But most of all, people are just hating people. I pray my heart don't become cold and that God may use me to reach out to people.

Our God is an AWESOME God part 1

Our God is an AWESOME God part 2

One step at a Time

thursday tacos

Well yesterday was funny. Jack in the Box was giving out two free tacos if you would show to them a gas receipt, I was coming back from work and I went and got my tacos. It was hilarious. I felt funny. But I mean it helped, I was no longer hungry. thanks Jack...lol.

praise God

So I am very excited, they have published my first article as an intern. WHoot whoot, Really... I am so excited and I just await to what God will do with this.

THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA

Yes I finally went to see the chronicles of narnia. I really had a wonderful time. Ready for my favorite part? Well, it is when Lucy says that she would like to be more courageous and Aslan tells her that if she was any more courageous she would be a lioness. I know, maybe it wasnt a great action pact scene but it is my favorite one. I still cant seem to take it all in. I think Sandy you are right to have gone seen it so many times, I think I need to go back to see it or rent it when it comes out. I still have unanswered questions.
I would like to thank adrian, my brother, for having gone with me. Yes when I asked him to go with me at 9:30 to a 10:20 showing. We drove back and got home at 1 am. Lol.
PS: I woke up this morning and THANKS TO GOD, it seems my article is going well, I need to get a hold of some people and fill in the gaps and its good to go. Also, I will be meeting with some of the girls in La Prensa and I will get to observe what they do and I will get to do it next week, God willing. I am so excited.

Shaken up

Today an earthquake shook me up at 7:20. The news said 7:14 but I felt it, it was at least 7:19. Umm and then my sister decided she was going to move out of state. She hates earthquakes and she decided she was going to move to Oregon. She said, all I have to worry there is about snow, I told her, but you are always cold. She responded, I prefer to be cold than frighten. Makes sense, so maybe I will have to be visiting my sister in Oregon in the future.

Unipolar

New word... new understanding.
I am grateful with God to live in a place where I can live free... free to learn, read God's word without persecution, speak Spanish and English and any other language I commit to learning, I can marry whom I choose (with God's direction); of course, like I have said before, FREEdom is NOT FREE. However, an "unipolar world"... why? why does it have to be that way. I think that we should all try to help each other. Its hard, but its hard because nobody starts. Loving others breaks the concept of an "unipolar world", because when you love people, walls of negativity, walls of self destruction, walls of harming and hating others, they come crumbling down. Hmmm... I don't think that it is "survival of the fittest" = Unipolarity what we should have in our minds, this only leads to wars. We should all try to love and when we cant because of our selfish ways we should give each others a break, and not take it personally. Hmmm.... I myself need to try to follow my own words... its hard but worth it.

Memories

Today, I got home at after 12pm and I joined my parents in looking at videos of music they used to listen to... not much has changed... ok maybe the dances and lyrics but apart from that nothing really. I think what I want to say is feelings and scenes don't change, I can be wrong. My parents reflect on their youth with their music and memories start overflowing their minds and the same happens to me and I guess many others. I decided to put the first video because is something that I really like, specially the beginning, and I mean as an added bonus, the scenes are phenomenal. I also added some of the videos they watched and I enjoyed. Hope you enjoy them. :)

"My Redeemer Lives - Team Hoyt

Incredible video about the relationship between a father and son.... and God's relationship with us." - sand2rock95's

Free way

Wind racing through my hair
I sped and felt it surrounding me
as if it wanted to lift me

The view
the never ending sky
with a moderate amount
of clouds.

I thought I was flying
now that I think about it
I was soaring.

Today
As I drove up a high
freeway ramp
I felt free

Who would have seen
this coming?
Me, out of all the people,
in the bliss
of driving in the freeway.

La Prensa/The Press Enterprise

Hoy fue mi inicio para mi pasantia en La Prensa... estaba emocionada. Cuando llegue, Enrique me presento a varios de los reporteros y me enseno la paginas web, sus videos en el internet. Ahora es tiempo de trabajar... tengo que mandar ideas de lo que quisiera escribir... Hmmmm... tengo una idea para educacion y para el hogar... necesito una mas... si tienes alguna sujeriencia porfavor mandame un comentario... te lo agradesco! PS: Si alguna vez sabes de alguna noticia que deveria ser publicada dejamelo saber. :)

Today was my first day at La Prensa for my internship... I was so excited. When I got there, Enrique introduced to me other reporters and showed me the web page, videos on the web page. Now it is time to work... I have to send ideas of what I would want to write about... Hmmm...I have an idea for education and for home decor... however I need one more... If you have any ideas let me know please!!!! I would greatly appreciate it.
PS: At any time, any news that you think are interesting to maybe cover let me know. :)

Letting Go

I have tried to be in control
always having my hand on the control
of my life
either a click away,
a phone call away,
or a prayer away.

I have lost control,
of this my control,
Its been hard
no doubt
about it
but so easy
to lay it down.

My fears and doubts
they do not have me,
my God has them
under control.

I found myself
in peace
as I let go
yet I know who
is in control

I even found myself
cry out today
"I feel good"

Yes,
this is
the bliss
of living in the
Truth.

It is my prayer,
It is my request,
That God may make
this my heart's state
of living.

one in a million

One in a million
Pieces to choose from,
Is it fiction or is it not,
I walk and deteriorate into
a million pieces.

Around me
Alone I stand
but on my knees
You are near me.

Oh, my distress,
My drenched out heart
one that beats slower,
slower,
slower,
every
single
time.

Still mother says
God is near to help
and proofs come flying in
yet I stumble and cry
I cry and despair
and then I write.

Yet we pray
we thank God
for His grace
and tears roll
down.

Holding on to hope
I sleep
tonight.

fully alive - acoustic

Unbreakable

Hitch

This is where I learned how to dance.



The cooties...

cinderella

dia de las madres

answered

After I wrote "Morning Back Pain" I found it! Psalm 46

Laminin

where is your weakness? who is your strenght?

Morning Back Pain

Its anew day
yet I still carry yesterday
on my shoulders.
Feeling stretched and weary
like a rag,
I hope and long
for rest, peace and security;
that when I open my eyes
I may be in Heaven

"I sing a song of hope
sing along
God of Heaven come down
Heaven come down"

God interpret my need
that I know You will meet.
Help me put my eyes
on my hope - to be by Your side.

Rick Alonzo

Divine Romance

Te acuerdas de esta cancion y este galan Sandra? jaja.

Why me?

Today I went to work at 8 am in the morning. I had the wrong schedule and didnt work until 4 pm. I then went to school at 2:40 pm, I was late. And did not find anybody there. Did I miss the memo. I am wondering if I should even go to work. Hopefully, I dont work, jajaja. Most likely I will. But, my question is... why me?! And did I mention, I went to sleep at midnight, and I got up at 5:15 to take a shower. I did take like an hour nap but boy am I tired!

cradle me

Have you ever felt lonely? Like you don't fit anywhere? You are surrounded of people and yet you do not find your place? You drive around and it seems everyone knows somebody and everyone knows them, yet you are alone. God promises us He will never leave us or forsake us. When life seems like it has picked you out of society, your family, friends and the whole earth full of humanity, go to Jesus. Pray, and read the Bible, God will speak to you. God will be there. And God, won't leave. Remember, God has us in His hands, and cradles us there and nobody can take us from His hand.

Stretchmarks

When you want something really bad all you want is that particular noun. Have you ever experienced a child reaching out, stretching out their arms towards you and without a word out of their mouths you know what they want? Yes! they want you, more than that, they want you to reach out, lift them up and carry them in your arms. Some people long so much for such an endearment act from someone that they develop stretch marks; Paul was one of these. I think that Paul mentioned that he shared Jesus scars, not only mere stretch marks, but bruises, punches, chain marks, malnutrition, piercings, whippings, ridicule and more, not to mention that Paul was not doing this to pay for his sins and someway or another earn salvation, Paul suffered all of this knowing that Jesus had saved him, redeemed him and would one day receive him if he just believed. God said to not be afraid of what humans could do to you. Jesus endured all this and death, and Paul, his follower, followed. Paul did not have to suffer, but, Jesus did not have to suffer either yet He did. Do you share God's scars? To be honest, I confess I feel life touch me and I weep, complain, and retrieve sometimes away from the Lord, I act like such a baby. However, God has said to us: Follow me. Come to me all who are weary and I will give you rest. Come near to me and I will come near to you. With my right hand I will help you. I will never leave you nor forsake you. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. God your Lord with all your mind, strength, heart, and soul. Follow me. Oh, and remember, we will live with God for eternity and concerning our longing, well, this is what God has to say about that:
The Sovereign LORD will wipe away the tears
from all faces;
he will remove the disgrace of his people
from all the earth.
The LORD has spoken.

my princesses Abigail and Keila