Long Wait

Two stray doves,
Born separate,
Seeking for love.

This song is just
A reminder
Of all I must
Wait.

I longed for love.
I prayed for you,
Of couse God said,
Wait.

I wait for you,
Please wait for me,
May God prepare
Your heart for me;
As He prepares
My heart for you -
Wait.

pre courtship

So I am reading "Choosing God's Best", and I am realizing that even though I yearn to get married soon I am not ready, I pray God helps me by preparing me. This book has helped me out much, however, the best advice that I would personally give is to just have a relationship with God and He will bring about the time when He will lead you even into thinking about courtship, marriage, etc. Now I pray for God to provide me practice with certain things and as I wait I will pray; for God is in the business of every detail in our lives. Praise God

Majestic whispers

"God will lead us with His eyes", in the book i am reading, it questions this statement found in the Bible... why? because like it mentions... How can God lead us with His eyes? Well, their explanation is that one needs to be so close to God that we are to be looking to His eyes for direction. I think this makes so much sense! When you read God's Word and have a relationship with Him, you get lost in his presence, in His eyes, in His heart, in Him. I am so content right now with my relationship with God. He is my Father, who is there for me. Forgives me, cleanses me, listens to me, speaks to me. This is why I titled this post "Majestic whisper", for I love the way my Father in Heaven speaks to me... magestic whispers! I am so excited right now. Listening to God really helps to wait in Him. It is amazing how God knows my heart and mind and is there for me. My heart is overflowing with joy. Happpiness is time sensitive but I pray God that in Him it lasts a long time, at least what He desires it to last. I am kind of scared of something...but I should'nt be... well, I am nervous... oh well. God though is leading. AAAhhhhh! ;)

Be transformed

So God tells us to renew our minds and be transformed rather than being conformed to this world and its ideas. Hmmm. Is that hard or what. I consider myself a person of thought, a person that was raised in the instability of feelings, and a person who is mere human (what can you expect). After coming to know my Lord Christ Jesus, I came to realize that thoughts are mere imaginations of the mind while feelings are mood swings, none can be depended on. This is what I seem to be confronting right now, with the help of God, I am victorious. It is hard, very hard, but God tells us that "we can do anything through Christ whom strengthens us", also, He says "I will never leave you nor forsake you", "nothing can separate us from the love of God through Christ Jesus ... not even our fears of today or our worries of tomorrow", and there are many more promises that God gives us in order to face the day. God is good, and He continues to be good and love us at all times...no matter if we think or feel opposite to this. He is faithful. Man, something that I have to fully rely on is God's faithfulness- He never changes. Another thing that I have found out is that I am very impatient, and that is not a virtue. Hmmmm. It is like I want things now and my way... why would I ever want that upon myself, I mean, whatever I touch, do, without God, becomes disaster. Anyways.

High Heels

Here is my how to article that I wrote for class, I really had fun writing this one. Plus, I don't know why these shoes are making me feel so girly, fierce and fun.

How to walk on high heels
by: Silvia Alvarez Jaramillo


Remember the scene of Bambi where we see the prince of the forest take his first steps? Was I the only one that laughed at his struggle to stand still and his wavering walk through the forest? Well, hopefully, I was not the only one, but have you ever seen a Bambi lady striding before you? Ok, what I mean is, have you ever seen a female who has no clue how to walk on high heels? Well, if you have experienced this and want to give them a lil’ advice or two, or if you are secretly trying to walk your talk then consider the following steps.

What you will need:
1. Find a place with a smooth floor
2. Start off with low high heels
3. Stable chair

Once you have gone all out to find the sexiest, most sickest high heels in the mall you are ready for the hardest ordeal of all time – walking on them. I suggest you find a place that has a nice smooth foundation (preferably not a brand new wooden floor) and one where you feel comfortable to fail – at least the first few times (in other words, don’t do this for the very first time in front of your crush). Now you are to practice the following:

1. Start off sitting down and putting on your heels. (maybe repeating continually the phrase: “there is no place like home”)
2. Use the chair to support yourself up.
3. After your done shaking , confidently take your first step keeping in mind that you will fist touch the floor with the part that holds your toes (this is just how the design of the shoe permits it). You will be putting pressure on your toes in order to redo these steps with your other foot when you get to that foot.
4. Regaining your balance is easy when you rest your foot confidently, smoothly, and for a second or two firmly on your heel.
5. Repeat and continue practicing.
6. When you have this down, strive to bring sexy back by forming your unique glide, sway or as Tyra would probably call it “fierce catwalk”.

Note: DO NOT – walk with heel first and toes following, (this will plainly make you look very weird). DO NOT- exaggerate the bending of your knees (or you might give off the impression that you are either doing the oompa loompa dance. DO NOT – walk a stiff walk (or you will be confused for a robot on heels).

Now that you know how to make a statement on heels, don’t go around calling rookies Bambies, it is just rude (note to self).

courtship begins with a hurting heart (still under construction)

Most of us have been conforming to a trend that has not been around enough time to bring out positive results while having had enough time to create many troubled hearts and heartaches. This trend is currently known as "dating". Of course, you are lucky if a set date is scheduled, an activity is planned out, and whether you know who you are dating (the risk in blind dates). While the trend still feels hot like out of the oven, the consequences that are being reaped are scolching. Ladies, how many times have you cried in the middle of the night feeling like you went all out and out of your way to please that special someone. How many nights have you dreamed about him only to continue fantasizing about your possible future with that hunk in your daydreams? How many times have you felt burnt out? How many feel that your thoughts of that other person is sucking the life out of your brain? How many excuses do you fly by for that other person? Most importantly, how long have you been doing this? How many guys have you given bits and pieces of yourself just wanting their attention and when that "relationship" fails you move on the the next best thing. I have gone through all of this. I have wasted so much of my time. Even though I read and try to follow God's Word, I seemed to be waisting myself away. Until, my heart was lethally crushed. In God's amazing love, I was always protected. The guys I had set my eyes on have always respected me and not intentionally hurt me. I was doing the hurting to myself actually, all they did was carefully avoid me and my baggage. This vicious cycle continued, and I am in the process of regenarating my mind, until I found an alternative. This alternative is known as courtship.
Courtship is what a Christian should be following as the standard in lovy dovie relationships. What are the steps? Step One: Believe in Jesus as your Lord and Savior (with this relationship you can't help but love Him). Second step: Pray and follow Christ with "all your mind, strenght, heart, and mind". Third step: Wait on the Lord (you have to TRUST God that He will bring you Mr. Right - who will be a Christian). Fourth step: Both of you shall seek the Lord for wisdom and guidance and a confirmation. Fifth step: Make the relationship known to your parents (spiritual counselors). Sixth step: Get to know each other spiritually (group outings). Seventh step: Emotional attachment. Eight step: Marriage. Ninth step: Physical oneness. Tenth step: Praise God.
Before I knew of courtship, I would take the lead in my relationships. I would set up the times I would see that special someone, I would make excuses for them, I would do, do and do. I would not even consider waiting (unless it was for his call - which would never happen). I would skip over steps and would not even consider some. Now, I have asked the Lord for Him to "restore the years that the locusts have eaten away". The locusts being my sinful drives and desires (lust not love). These locust have been eating me away. I have asked God to "take brokedness and create it into beauty once again". It is a hard process, one that is taking much time. I feel hurting right now because of these new standards I have discovered, but I know that as a pricess, for I am the daughter of the King of Kings, I am to only expect the best and only God has the best for me. After writing this, I see more things that I need change, this only means more prayer.

"Seek God and you will find Him",
Silvia